Am I doing this right? My training is going well. My body feels good, I’m getting in the mileage that I want, I’m getting in hills and trails, etc. But…that’s where the enemy likes to hang out, right? In the “but”… That little pause between the positive and the negative, which seems to overshadow the positive, and make it seem dim and unimportant. He has a way of taking the things that seem to be going well, and twisting them into self-doubt and a panicky unease.
Am I focusing on the right things?
Am I working for the families in Bassin Caiman, or am I motivated selfishly, because I personally am enjoying the challenge of training for this endeavor?
Am I fundraising the right way?
Enough? Too much? Too pushy? Too passive?
But then I remember that God doesn’t work via panic and doubt. He provides peace, grace, clarity, and a confidence, not in one’s self, but in His ability to complete His work in us.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
The enemy doesn’t want us to succeed. He wants to paralyze our efforts. With me, he likes to try and shake my confidence through negative self-talk, and via my internal need for external validation…in other words, through my specific areas of weakness. But, (and this is a “but” where GOD is hanging out)…
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
I’m praying for focus, determination, strength, and discernment, when it comes to this undertaking. I’m praying that I stay out of God’s way, so that He has the space to do something amazing for this small Haitian community. I covet your prayers for the same, and am so thankful for you.